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Conquering my fear of heights



For as long as I could remember I had been petrified of heights. I used to have to shut my eyes as a passenger in a car when crossing a bridge over water. I used to get really sweaty palms, start shaking and have to hold someone’s hand when I actually had to walk over a bridge. I tried to conquer my fear when I was 18 when I went to Go Ape. But nope, I wasn’t ready… because I told myself I couldn’t do it. I had a mini panic attack on the first height level and had to get down of the course and quit.

So skydiving right? The most exhilarating experience you could imagine. Definitely, something I never, in my wildest dreams thought that I would be able to do and that’s because, like at Go Ape, I told myself I couldn’t.

In 2014-2015, Michael and I spent the most amazing year of our lives working and living in Australia. For me, travelling itself was a big fear to overcome. But I did it, because instead of saying I can't, I won't I shouldn't... I just told myself I could. So we decided to do an east coast trip towards the end of our stay. Michael had mentioned sky diving, and I knew that the time had come. What better way to embrace my fear of heights and finally overcome it.

I’m not going to lie, when we went to book the dive I felt physically sick. During the weeks running up to it I struggled to sleep. I woke up a few nights in cold sweats just at the thought, and there was a day when I was convinced I couldn’t do it. I had to remind myself I was strong and I COULD DO IT.

So D Day eventually came and I was as ready as ever. I tried not to let my anxiety take over and luckily I was so pumped with adrenaline that nothing was going to hold me back.

I cannot even begin to put into words the feeling you get when you jump out of a plane at 14,000 feet.

Even writing this now feels bizarre that I actually did it.

Nothing can prepare you for the moment you shuffle your way out to the door of the plane, your legs dangling off the edge and you sit there, your head rested on your instructor’s shoulders about to jump.
Those few seconds are probably the most amazing seconds of your life, all of your thoughts disappear and you feel like you’ve never felt before,

… euphoric… exhilarated… energised.

and then before you know it you’re falling and it feels surreal.  For 60 seconds you free fall at up to 160mph. You would expect to get that funny feeling in your tummy like you would on a rollercoaster, but it’s not the same. You don’t have anything around you to understand how fast you are going, but you know its fast by how much the wind is pushing your cheeks away from your face.

When the parachute opens, you glide through the air like a bird, with not a care in the world. Your eyes are still streaming and your heart is pounding like crazy but you take it all in.

When you land, your legs are shaking and you are in a state of disbelief and shock. It actually takes a while before it sinks in too, and then comes the obsession, the addiction, the passion to do it all over again.

We were lucky to jump in Cairns in the most beautiful location. The guys at Tandem Cairns did an amazing job in ensuring you felt safe, comfortable and had the most unforgettable experience.

Even now, sometimes when I see a plane overhead and I look up and think… wow Luce, go you!

I cannot recommend enough how you NEED to add skydiving to your bucket list, and if you have a fear of heights like I did and don’t think you can do it, read my Feel the Fear and Do it Anyway post for a bit more inspiration.

Have you ever conquered a fear? How did you do it? And how did you feel?

Love Luce x

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  1. That's amazing. I can't even look out my bedroom window. Lol. I close my eyes when ever we go over the mackinaw bridge to get to my sisters.
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